Back to the REAL stuff.
I’ve been in a funk. The funkiest of funks since 2011. And that was one hell of a funk if you have been following me that long. (on the former Destination Unknown Blog.)
I ended up removing any extra things to just focus more on me – and doing it by my self. I’ve been working with the most fabulous nutritionist, someone I highly recommend to everyone. But I decided to take a little break. Why? Because I was not making any progress with myself. It was absolutely nothing she was doing – I was using her as a crutch and yes, my excuses were real, but I need to see if I can do this myself… for a bit, then revisit to take it to the next level.
I noticed a few weeks ago I was off the rails. Eating whatever I wanted, not tracking like I should and getting really snippy with everyone. Red flag. So what do I do when I catch myself spiraling? I call a therapist. Yep.
I called and made an appointment. Two hours later, I was given two assignments: 1. Scream in the car.
2. Come up with plan B.
Now what does that mean? It means stop waiting for life to happen. Start making some plans. Who do I really want to be the next 40 – 50 years (God willing.) Find things to look forward to.
And so.. I did.
I do want to be healthy. I have learned sooooo much over the past year from Sue. But I need more of a disciplined approach. So guess what I did? I signed up, again, for Weight Watchers. I’m applying the nutritional education I received from Sue and applying it to the point system to help me sort out my day. Same deal – I’m tracking my macros for myself to see if I am getting a balanced diet, but I am also just entering the foods to see when it is time to pull back. Week one – I have lost 4 pounds. Probably mainly water, but hey – I am focused and eating a VERY balanced meal. For example, tonight I am making Sheet Pan Chicken Fajitas and a pot of zero point, slow cooked bean dip for some whole grain tortillas. All whole foods, nothing processed but the tortillas and a whole lot of good. I’m doing it. Sue would be so proud. This week I have meal planned and found delicious new recipes. I’m going to be okay on that front.
This is what is depressing me. Every time I start to feel better, my knee flames up. This is making a full body workout almost impossible. Which is causing me issues. Luckily, my pool opens up in two weeks, however, I’m back to the doctor next week. I may end up having to have one of my knees scoped.
Updates – no lupus or RA – or at least I haven’t been called. I was told by my doc that if it was positive they would call. If not, we would just have our face-to-face on Tuesday. That’s good news. One more test – for Lyme. Anything is possible.
As for Plan B. Hmmm… well, Tim and I are in the process of turning our backyard into our little oasis. We are just waiting for some stocks to be cashed in and then you will see! Also, we have an idea for our first investment and I can’t wait to reveal what that is. I suspect that will happen before Fall!
Yes, we have been discussing retirement. I told him it is easier for me to plan for retirement, if I knew what that looked like. So we have been dreaming a little more lately. My whole idea behind my off-season travel blog and potentially coaching small businesses on buzz marketing, strategic planning, and team-building and a whole lot more is finally started to take shape in my head.
I’m truly looking forward to the future.
I just need to be a little more selfish with my time, a little more picky with the gossip I let in my head, and a little more goal oriented and I will be the best version of me.
What are you working on?