Embracing the Suck

I started off strong. Like really, really, REALLY strong.

I didn’t allow negative thoughts to control me.

I practiced patience.

I was intentional.

I was authentic.

I got worn down…

Oh Happy New Year.

**PS – I wrote this really fast, please excuse typos**


Well, just one week did it. One week out of six or seven can’t be all that bad. The pic above sort of shows the hole being poked into my balloon… a water balloon, that is.

Let’s go back, because it appears we are about 3 months behind. So much for my keeping a daily blog again.

Now how did things turn out with all of the “stuff” I was dealing with. Well…

I stayed so busy that NO ONE had time to even side eye me. (If they did, I didn’t get to see it.)

78888686_153842922686001_3649789858689318912_nFirst things first, the Holiday Season happened. Which means, I had to make an appearance at 23 different events (business and personal!) It wore me out and yes, I ended up with my first really bad cold of the year, but it was December!) The pic above is of Tim and I (the last weekend in November, I THINK,) at the Plains Christmas Party. Our job was to officially switch the light on when they said, “Let there be light!” Our yearly “Parks & Rec” moment was complete without a hitch!

When it came to work, we had a few events to get through – including the fact that I was asked to emcee the Americus Christmas Parade. I did get a pic with the jolly old guy. 🙂 All of the work related stuff came and went and honestly, it was beautiful. I was in such a funk though, that I don’t even remember enjoying it. If you remember, 2019 was shaping up to just be awful! My Dad had a heart attack, was undergoing cancer treatment, and he and mom were at each others’ throats. It was all just too much.

78554683_153760576027569_3894762020020420608_nTim and I did take one Saturday to pic out a Christmas tree. We went to a tree farm that a coworker owns in Ellaville and we found a very tall tree, perfect for my Living Room. It wasn’t quite fluffy enough on the bottom, but it did what it needed to do!

We did have our first face-to-face with the ex at Cotton’s dance recital. Luckily, I have a torn MCL (that is not the lucky part,) but it did give me the opportunity to sit on the end of a very long row for the recital and I was at the opposite end of HER. We got there, we sat through the recital and we left. Easy breezy. Cotton even came to spend the night a couple of times over the holidays.

74209736_158435305560096_6585348040696004608_oSpeaking of the holidays, early in December I got the chance to head home and visit with my friend, Steven. He is the Tourism Director for the Visit Macon CVB and he wanted to show off all of the new things happening in my hometown. It gave me a great excuse to go home. And go I did…


The best news ever, he invited my Tourism BFF from Statesboro and we got the VIP treatment.

Here we are stuck in the Hay House elevator!


We got to tour the Christmas lights down Poplar & Third in Downtown Macon. It was absolutely gorgeous! I definitely plan to head down next year to see the concert on the opening night. I believe it would totally get me into the Christmas spirit!

When you head to my little hometown, Mint Juleps are necessary on the front porch. #SoBougie
I got to eat one heck of an amazing steak at the Downtown Grill in the Alley.


There were so many beautiful trees to see all over town. Becky and I got to ooh and ahh over the Christmas decor at the Hay House.

I got to visit with some many good friends that are making things happen back home and it filled my love tank just a little bit more.


My friend Mary Therese came down to share her book series with the Friends of Jimmy Carter National Historic Site Executive Director (and friend,) Kim Fuller. I love when I can connect amazing people/projects and the right contacts together to make something amazing happen! Plus, it is always good to have time to sit and chat with a friend.


Like I mentioned before, I was struggling to keep a bad cold at bay and took about an hour to stop by Telisa’s Float Robins for some Halotherapy time. Cleared my sinuses right up!


I attempted to have a Meowy Catmas, but the damn weather down here was like Spring for most of the holiday season.

Salvatore is always the star at our parties

Then there was our 2nd Annual Kirksey Christmas Party! The next few pics will be some of the highlights!

Tonya came down from Macon and as always, was the life of the party!










Arielle came down from Macon also with John!



The event included a very competitive Dirty Santa game! The right people came this time. I think last year, it was more of a “Hey, let’s snoop through her house. We don’t know this chick.” This time it was people who actually are trying to get to know me better.


Our guests even got creative with their gifts. Someone bought a ton of scratch off lottery tickets and framed it!


I did actually take 2 weeks off from work – it ended up being 17 days. Heck, I probably could have used 17 more. But it was exactly what I needed to kick start my 2020 off right. While home, I snuggled a whole bunch with the babies.







I promise Jolene got snuggles, she just didn’t end up staying still long enough to get a pic of her.

My parents came down on Christmas eve and spend the night with us. We had everyone (yes, everyone) over for Christmas Eve dinner. My mom & I prepared the typical traditional Christmas dinner: Ham, Mashed potatoes, green beans, etc. Tim’s mom and sister and niece came over. My niece was in Florida with her dad and my sister stayed home to take care of my parent’s animals.



It was interesting how my in-laws just weren’t used to our banter. I could tell. We are all kind of snarky and quick witted with a wicked sense of humor. They are a lot more literal. I would say some type of little teasing remark to my dad or mom and strange looks would come across their faces. Eh.. whatever.

Christmas came and went at the Kirksey’s house. I did end up with some super cool paintings from my family as gifts. When you are the daughter of artists, it is always fantastic to get something no one else in the world would have!


I almost forgot to share: my SIL and stepdaughter performed at their church’s function:


At the end of the day, it was good to see my mom relax and have a little fun:


And my dad to do the same:


My parents had a really hard year and there was more to come with a aeortic valve replacement. But we all got through it.


New Year’s Eve came and went like the bitch it was. I could not WAIT for 2019 to just go back to the hole it crawled out of. We had some pretty awesome options for New Year’s: My friends in Savannah said, “Come on down.” Our friends up in Nashville said, “Come on up.” My friends in Macon said, “We miss you, spend it with us.” But with the way we were all feeling, we chose to stick closer to home. We stopped by the Plains New Year’s Eve party. I think it was a really good idea, but we did not really know anyone there. So we stayed about 30 minutes and left.

We came back home, popped the bubbly, wrote down our wishes and what we wanted to leave in 2019 and threw those in the fire. Then I pulled up the NYC NYE count down and we celebrated. THE END 2019. Don’t let the door hit you on the way out.

I spent the next week just exploring French cuisine and reading and heading to Physical Therapy 3 x a week.

I decompressed a little more by stopping by Float Robins and getting a 90 minute massage, 45 minute halo therapy, and 90 minute float. It did the trick!


I did a little shopping with an Amazon gift card I got from my MIL. I also found out I lost 5 pounds from Weight Watchers. To lose 5 pounds over the holidays is a miracle in itself!

Needless to say, it was a good break. I got back to work and hit the ground running. I planned out my tourism retreat, I decided to put in a relaxation station at the visitor center, and I registered for a few conferences. I even got to post a new job for my department.

One of my first big lands of 2020. A feature in Macon Magazine. Score!
Doing something good: Raising awareness that Heart Disease is the #1 Killer of Everyone by wearing red on National Wear Red Day. Something that has been near and dear to my heart for about 15 years.
I purged my closet and gave my clothes to a local church helping those in need.
Again, I volunteered for the Heart Walk – because I felt passionate enough about heart disease and what all my family has endured and what I am hoping to keep at bay.
I’ve been intentional and authentic with my friendships. Developing new ones and treasuring the old ones.
I’ve been trying to invoke the spirit of Wonder Woman on the daily. Embracing the gifts God have me.


I like to collect interesting people. MT is one of those people. Plus, she is one of my bestest friends.
Made more time for my family.
Proving you can do it all. As I took this pic, my father was under going surgery and I had to lead a retreat. It was hard, but it happened!
Continuing to eat healthier.


And finally…. adulting is hard. I have such amazing intentions, but I get so busy and side tracked. My writing was a way to take stock in all that I have accomplished. Things are okay. I am striving to reach my new goals for 2020:

  1. Create true connection with people
  2. Be authentically me
  3. Avoid toxic relationships
  4. Read more
  5. Give of my time and talents, even when I would rather be lazy
  6. Embrace the suck. (Bloom where you are planted.)
  7. Make healthier choices
  8. Meditate/Devotionals
  9. Create
  10. LIVE your life

How are you doing? Make sure to let me know how your New Year is!

Published by nicolesdestinationunknown

Tourism Director * Freelance Writer * Southern * Catholic * Crazy Cat Lady * Wonder Women * Coffee Addict * Traveler * Voracious Reader * Cultural Junkie * *GSD Mom*

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